Thoughts

I have always wondered if i could live forever, if i could see this world and STAY on this world. I do not want to leave, i enjoy the emotion, i enjoy the people, i enjoy the nature but above all i enjoy my own concept of love. I think love is not necessarily set. i think it is imagined, much like a feeling here today and hopefully there tomorrow. Love scares me though, what if i become a worse person, what if i create something and it does not love, what if i love wrong? What if i never had heard of love? Never seen it? Never felt it? Never watched it in a movie? Would i be scared of this "Love"? I feel as if i have never been loved because of all the love which looks so unnattainable. I want it, and i want it more than anything. I want everlasting love, which by my own definition is immpossible. So what is it that im looking for? I think what i am looking for is a pretty woman to hold, a face to caress, a mouth to feed, a person i can cry to and they would cry with. I think i am looking for a person to create something from everything. I think what i am looking for is myself.