The void or a dream?

When I was a kid I wanted to fly high in the sky like a book inside the hook it’s always a reading rainbow I never ever thought I would feel this pain tho flying through the blissful sun kissed air and pretty burnt orange clouds while the sun is kissing the ocean slowly going down so we can start the process of going in, I glare at the world below me flying trying to keep it upbeat but we all know why I’m flying, an angel came up to me with beautiful blonde hair it looked like my grandma who passed away when I was about 10-11 or so she came to me and she said it’s not my time I can fly here for a bit but I got to go back to reality no matter how peaceful it felt, it was like a warm blanket on your skin while breathe air in from your old memories oh don’t let me go back please I don’t wanna go back I said in the most panic I can show she looked at me with that soft angel hair and a glow, it’s not your time I gotta let you go back to the world you still got much to explore the realm in this beautiful place I miss your face Jackie you’ll be okay! Now just go and I’ll miss you forever stop snorting the drugs tho cus you’ll end up back here and as pretty as you see it now just know people who die from an overdose depending if it’s purposeful or not you don’t wanna end up at the bottom of the void of the black nothing, that sh it will fu uck you up trust me I’d know I was there last week I overdosed and when I died all I could see was black and nothing more and nothing less just a full room of nothing you don’t wanna experience it feels scary and numbing and you gotta figure out how to leave the room but it’s purgatory so that’s different for everyone else in the dark oblivion of the void room if you ever overdosed or died with sin you’ll know what I mean when I said it’s a dark void of oblivion and you don’t feel easy either that sh it is a scary ass place I always think it’s the waiting room when you’re not supposed to pass away and they keep you there until they figure out where to put your soul away, I saw the angels and the oblivion too that is crazy I suggest you try to get into the angel room, because once you’re in the oblivion room you’ll be lucky to even wake up take it from me I was stuck in that void for 3 days tops but it felt like a dream with no visions or anything just like a very dark void where you are stuck to think about everything and you feel no pain so don’t worry if you make it out tell me your story. Good luck. Do better with life