The Undecipherables

I woke in the night "I've lost something" fright With amnesiastical thoughts I try to remember with all my might My bag is missing I can't remember the design Perhaps it became a butterfly and flew away I wake in the night "I'm in danger" fright With amnesiastical thoughts I try to save myself with all my might I don't know who I am Is that not the days musing? Where does it come from I think in the night "I'm unfixable" fright With amnesiastical thoughts I try to resolve with all my might There's nothing wrong Except I'm hard to please Obtaining then discarding hard won dreams I exist in the night "I'm in the wrong place" fright With amnesiastical thoughts I try to recalibrate with all my might I need to see myself through other eyes There need be nothing wrong I've succeeded and am sitting pretty I question quietly in the night "why am I not grateful" fright With amnesiastical thoughts I try to jolt myself awake