The Silent Scream

When in that moment in my life I did not believe it was actually happening to me That just couldn't be The longer I sat in that bed I soon realized I was not dreaming Nor living in a false reality This was MY Reality And I was living my worst nightmare I can picture everything that went down that night Like it was playing out infront of me Almost like seeing a movie you've seen 100 times And even so each time you watch it Something new Shows it self Each time you re-watch it I remember thinking that these people must really hate their job right now I remember them taking everything out of the room before I came in I remember them telling me I need to calm down I remember them drawing my blood Each tear a raindrop, torn apart I remember being so tired I couldn't sleep I remember feeling like a failure I remember being so mad at myself I remember being there for what feels like forever In the leading up weeks nothing mattered to me Like a broken mirror, unable to be fixed piece by piece, reflecting nothing more than who I truly was Like a candle burning itself out, smothered by its our flame, In desperate need to extinguish the pain Like a fading photo, losing all color, clarity, slipping into oblivion But of course That was't the worst part That was't even the start.