The Neighbor's Wife

He's been struggling with depression, She said, so then have I. It's our bad news that competing depressions breed more contagiously than our cooperation feeds happiness. Yet our good news grows: Depression and positive impression are equally contagious passions pastimes eruptions into changing flowstreams of consciousness, evolving communal conscientiousness, naked co-relational intention, interdependent awareness, dawning enchantment with disenchanting dusky stories, natural power causes spiriting light effects causing co-acclimating affects Positive and negative passions, pressures, impressions, compression. I've been struggling against his self-repression, she said, so then he worries about his oppressive powers financial and political and emotional, physical and mental. He doesn't hit me or any sentient being but scares me when he hits and manhandles against his phone, kicks against his car, strikes against his walls and doors and dark-shaded windows, his property he most transparently cares about, relies upon. This chronic environment of fear, seeing his violent anger causes our climate anxiety and a lack of safely vulnerable expression, chronic trauma repression. The difference between my suppressed fear feelings of repression and his depressed anger feelings, oppressively threatening to disinvest despite his great attraction to narcissistic We v Them is a real-talk difference only if we both equitably know we are each free to affordably leave, cut our future health-opportunity losses, without threat of violent and impoverishing absence of wealth repercussions. While a free Get Out Of Jail card and a blinking Safe Exit sign over our back doors and front floors and aside windows are not much for sharing resonant journeys toward active compassion, co-operative wonder, interactively resilient awe, co-infested health and happiness, prosperous food for mind embodied fitness Yet neither is flood insurance, cooperatively affordable re-assurance, a sign of bad faith in safe and dry land. Oppression becomes aggressive repression without freedom to afford exit strategies And ego repression invites eco-systemic depression without mutual freedom to catch and re-catch compassion with and for each faithful interdependent Other, sentient and sexsensed as our safe alliance for absorbing cooperative resonance Practicing win/win resilience, practicing re-alliance, practicing integrity of positive compassionate pleasures. Negative depressions stem from lonely longing origins internal and external, As positive impressions grow from nakedly practiced compassion, Solidarity belonging and bred within ego/eco-cooperative fed root nutritional systems Fitness energy for actively appreciating each wounded and wounding Other, including sacred hims and vulnerable hers, transparently discussing fist-vulnerable hands and heads, and stomping, kicking feet, and bad-news phones and unreliable cars and imprisoning homes and patriarchal predative supremacists As if all lives and interdependent relationships mattered for altering depressive competitions and for continuing impressive cooperations.