The Miles of Smiles

If I can walk ten thousand miles Just to see your sunlit smiles, I’d die ten thousand more times Maybe, a billion times per chime; this time, I’ve committed love crimes If I can walk infinity times infinity, Would I be a zero for eternity? I think not — I’d be negative 37 A dove above heaven — maybe even a positive 24 X eleven I’m sorry that I am confused, Lord, Of where I ought to go from here I love You and Your accord, accord I’m shedding off this awful fear I’m afraid I’ve lost it all I’m afraid of making a fall But, I think backwards and think to myself: Does this make any sense? Should I do things myself? Am I a lone elf in the left shelf? I believe I can grieve to relieve… This pain inside me… I deceive myself honestly…just leave This pain disdainfully Enjoying this sensation of Something I can’t grasp or think of Are you up there, love? No…you’re down here, love Because I will arise above The surface in which I used to rove Because I will arise above The waves of emotions, my other glove.. I speak poetry… Set me free from my misery… You suck me up like aspirin… Where have you been? That…desirable…sin Makes me want to smile and wave at it I will smile at my trials from within…wit… I’m a nitwit I’m sorry and Just a bit…uncanny like yourself…and it’s legit… I admit I love you and hate you at the same time — I’m just so sick Sometimes, I wish you well, wine from below my stomach… The miles of smiles Is my present feeling I quit dealing … numbing …………. Unveiling….also, counseling myself into concealing the real me……. ……. Let silence speak for itself You and me — why can’t we be free? I loved you like I did yourself Do yourself a favor and let me…be… It sucks being me End me But, yet, instead — words left insane and unsaid…shame embraced me, never leaving my presence I want to begin me to the core I am alive… at last, alas, at last, alas… Until I’m damn dead once more Deafening me inconceivably and you’re nonchalantly ahead…of the game that makes no sense Survive I’m still here, alive So what if you’re not with me Whatever…things will eventually get better Well, it’s not like it was meant to be Welcome in, under the dang weather… Languishing…I’m in anguish…baby Save me from killing me inside, okay? Deserting this cancerous feeling inside me Drive me to the grave…I dare you, Worldly, witchy slave I will smile away the days you’re not here with me I will smile a million miles and I will be your piles of debt someday I am the files of fretfulness and fearlessness at bay Come stay with me, babe, please don’t stray…everyday…with me and me alone, okay??? I’m going insane to the point of no return You left me to burn — now what? It’s your turn To turn me around someday You left me with this text reply -_- -~> ? What do you even mean by that? I know that I’m turning ugly both inside and out What do you even mean by (?) ? I could of sworn you loved me without a doubt I will smile away my drowning fate I will knock on your door after I reach the gate I will smile away the inner frowns I will walk my walk in these tranquil towns Cuz I’m done…I’m done… Being your sunshine at dusk and nightfall Stop Wanderlusting ‘round and trust me as I take this extra free-fall Cuz I can’t take this all in one sitting I’m going to let it lay in the back of my mind This is Upsetting me to the max I must now relax…it’s the past…it should be left there I’m overwhelmed Unsexual right now I’m anxious and nervous and insecure You, Lord, are my only cure And, yes, rising above the ashes isn’t easy Neither is finding a way to endure possibly For now, let me unwind in my cave Behave and be brave… You will never be unforgotten and you are forgiven In my memory, where nothing goes rotten…then… Why worry? Why stress? Why scurry? Why this distress? Can’t you get over things And wear The Mile of Smiles? Everything and everyone everyday and every night Doesn’t matter anymore…no more worrying with fright Fearlessness is key to being happy Having bravery is the key to hopefulness from above Live on, dawn of desirable glee Most of all, I’m a loyal leader from the Kingdom of Love If I can walk ten thousand miles Just to see your sunlit smiles, I would totally go for it Obviously, you don’t give a … And now, I know why Because you want me to die… But, God, why must I live on? Is it because I’m as important as Your son? Father, flourishing freedom Never came and sins of my youth make me grow numb… You, oh you finally come The mile of smiles on your face And you tell me not to worry or not to act dumb You also told me to hold on to vast grace I’m no longer a disgrace or distasteful in God’s epic race Embrace solace liberty There, you’ll find happiness unconditionally