Someone Call Poison Control

i want to go back to a time where i felt pretty a time where i felt something. where slam poetry about brittle bones and bottles spoke to me where sharp pieces of metal and sexy, seducing, sad songs spoke for me and scars whispered what could’ve never been said projectile vomiting diet coke and sugar-free bubblegum choking on what i didn’t eat and the secrets eating me alive. what a beautiful way to rot i am a pesticide covered flower a beautiful being crumbling slowly right in front of your eyes. you picked me to try and brighten your already dull life, unknowing of my dullness placed me in a dirty glass what else could you have done? i felt. I felt pretty. something. something i wasn’t used to like i was meant for more than rotting in this flower bed.