Shhhh

“Shhhh” she whispered as the silence was broken by the tears of uncertainty I tried to quiet myself I just couldn’t, For some reason I craved her, she knew, And for some reason she kept her feelings hidden. She wasn’t sure of what she wanted so I cried through my words “I’ll Be here” Pause “I know you’re not ready yet” Pause “But when you are” My eyes looked towards my feet “I’ll be here waiting” I heard her silent questioning Why So I responded with silence myself Except it was silence in motion I moved in and embraced her My lips wrapping around hers I kissed her. She kissed back. But that was the end of it for the time being, And for some strange reason I acted like I was okay with it I acted and I acted and I acted But all my acting couldn’t stop the dreams, No terrors, No romantic horrors. For many nights they brought me feelings so real my heart would leave my body and fly, Only to be torn out of the sky and buried under the harsh awakening I had when the alarms would move my body from the night into the day, How can you crave something you’ve never had so strongly, How can you desire something for so long, That you die needing it. So every night I cried silent tears, and every day I wore a lie across my face, only broken by the glimpses of beauty I got when I saw you. “Shhhh” I heard your voice as I saw you, So “Shhhh” I would tell myself Over and over and over again “Shhhh”