Raised by a narcissist
Until last Wednesday I never thought
I'd been bought up by narcacist, the thought made me distraught
But then the memories flooded back in
A narcissist raised me, now let me begin
I thought of my childhood as safe and happy
Never rich but always savvy
There's nothing I ever went without
Apart from love, I see that now
Micro chips for every meal
My mum grieving so not ideal
Saturdays sat alone in the dark
Snooker in the background made it's mark
Friends they would come and go
Drunken fights in the house was a great show
Tenants falling down the stairs
Mums friends always over in tears
Dad wasn't in the picture, not much I knew
He died apparently but that was untrue
Don't get me started we'll be here all night
Let's try and keep this poem polite!
My stepdad is an angry man
Was scared of him from the second they began
Mum took his side no matter what
A grown man Vs child fight for the top spot
I'm the black sheep, I've been condemned
A narcissist's love feels so real
A narcissist feeds off fear
If your vulnerable they are always near
Because I dared to take my stand
From the family I was banned
She rationed her love until there was nothing left
Looking back it was always neglect
I sat down and thought today
What I'm writing is not nice to say
I feel bad my words might make her sad
That's the narcissist for you, l now understand
Through all my sadness she will never see
Her actions are what damaged me
She'll play the victim, of course she's right
A narcissist will always win the fight
What iv learnt today' is not nice
But if I can, here's some advice
Never feed a narcissist your soul
For once you do they have control
They will twist and turn, kick and bite
They will do anything to make you believe their right
You'll be conditioned forever, it's sad to say
Deep down inside you'll never get away
She's had a grip all my life
I believed everything including her lies
My mum is not a demon to me
But she is dark, cold and mean
A narcissist hides in plain site
A narcissist feeds off misery for their delight
My mothers a narcissist, the thoughts all new
The damage done is beyond repair
Still don't know how we got here
I can say it all day for all to hear
My mum broke my heart, I won't ever heal
A narcissist raised me, how did I survive
A narcissist raised me, am I that way inclined?
A narcissist's love is just a loan
You'll pay it back with blood & bone
Copyright © Gogster Dw | Year Posted 2024
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