Please Do Not Laugh

Please do not laugh. I do not have the answer. But the questions i have? There as deadly as cancer. No matter how hard i try. Or how far i go. More disappointment Is all that i know! Please do not laugh I don't know my roots. I know years of drug dealing And plenty abuse. Please do not laugh. I'm scared on the inside. Is it kill or be killed? Or run first, then hide? I lost my guidance So its hard for me to trust. Sometimes the pressures to much. And the pipes in me will bust. There are way to many questions. Not enough around to ask? I'm a child in my mind.... So please do not laugh...