Perseverance

I need some self-control… I need some courage right this instant Boldness and brilliance is on my tongue… Bravery was always my middle name… But, I need His Holy Spirit as a whole… I need some patience and strength To get through this tiresome night…I’m like a busy, little ant… My head is in the clouds My head’s been wandering ‘round in shrouds Of gold, silver and bronze I want to be a shining sun and a shimmering moon Real soon, it’ll be a full moon… I’m a fool for taking wisdom for granite I didn’t mean to take advantage of friendship I need to get a grip… Tears are falling out of my eyes Can’t stand the senseless lies The anxiety took advantage of me The sadness is behind me now Somehow, I raise a brow Thinkin’ to myself, “How the hell did I make it throughout the years!?” I want some happiness in my life I want some gladness instead of endless strife I want His love from above, not hell from down below Show me a reason to live life to the fullest When my tunnel leads to darkness to the best of its ability I need some sustainability… I need some rest Because I tried my best, Trying so hard to believe in myself I feel so down – gravity pushes me way, way down I’m still wearing an upside down frown Get out of town because I’m wasting time… I’m as worthless as a rusty dime Yet, my humility is getting me somewhat happy… My pride leaves me feelin’ so crappy… Yet, I feel so alone On my own… And I don’t want to feel for you anymore… No more madness and sadness… I’m sick of the daily dose of distress I need some kind of season of love Because I can’t stop thinking of You… Out of the blue… God has given me some perseverance today I’ve been having it my way Until my perverse mouth poured forth vain things Profanity, agony and insanity is in my brew of coffee I cracked up some dirty jokes That can give someone a heart attack… I lack self-control I’m such a fool Fill in my hole… Of loneliness…I’m swimming in the pleasureless pool Everything happened so quickly… I was on Cloud a million till you left me with me… Till you left me with me… And I am fragile and young…still, a wise dork That is like a rotting plate of pork I’ve been feeling the need to lean on someone’s shoulder… Because I’m as stiff as ever like a blasted boulder You turned the cold shoulder Because I’m the water under the bridge I need His Holy Ghost I need it so badly…something I won’t boast about His Fruit is delicious and delectable I’m like an unstable table… My story will be told like a silly, wonderful, childlike fable I suppose I was just another label In society… My only plea… Is to see you exultant… Because you are excellent In my eyes… In my longing, sea-forest (green-blue) eyes… I’m very unable to crawl out of depression’s reach I’m like a beach Without its crazy-cool water source… without its sun-shining, sly seagulls… Without its coursing, whirling wind… I need perseverance I need some sort of reverence Towards Him… He’s my one and only whim He’s a radiant remembrance My scatter-brained skull And my sluggish soul Are seeking evanescence… Positivity and optimistic spirits zip through my lane of thought Despite usual negative, pessimistic and horrid little notions… I’m feeling okay – just hand me passionate potions So, I can drink my life away…so, I can drown away all egotistical emotions My reputation may be in pieces… God, You know that I tried to keep it peaceful Tranquility isn’t always my cup of tea… If you know what I mean…I get so regretful And I want to fly away and be free… God knows I’ve tried… Satan isn’t going to intervene with my love toward Him… My one and only whim.