Opera for Feminine Otherness

Demigirl Definition A space between Androgyny and conventional binaries of female identity A gender not recognized by mainstream policies And subjected to the far corners of the Q+ community Act 1: Physicality I am a tangled mess of tree limbs With coils blessed by God Skin, a milky chocolate brown I trace the bumps around my knuckles My fingers map out the uncharted waves of pink stretch marks That caress my torso Act 2: Personality I am trapped in a fish bowl Eyes distant behind the shadows of twists And Afro Sheen bottles I sing to myself in the shower Broadway lights rain down, Warmer than the steady stream of water Pouring down onto my face I stare at my legs with sorrow Wondering why can’t the thighs thin? Why can’t the bruises on my knees kneel down To the power of Band-Aids and cocoa butter? Interlude I am not woman nor man I am alien, the Lord’s creation In a body that still has not grown to its full potential I am still but a lump of clay That has not been fully formed by the hands of divinity Act 3: Artistry I am always a genius, never normal Always the machine That can only bring My intelligence to the table I work into the stars of my future Crash and burn into millions of particles I never meant for the scars and cuts To be permanent markers of self hatred I never meant for my escape from reality To be a betrayal to my own sanity Act 4: Acceptance I am a metaphor for metamorphosis An ever changing melody of gender fluidity I am the culmination Of all that has come before me Demigirl or Nonbinary can’t begin to encompass The intricacies of my identity For I am an opera for feminine otherness