Occupied

As a boy, I'd find my father sitting in the pitch dark living room, cigarette aglow, as I'd pass from my bed to the bathroom. Did the boy consider, at that late hour, what plans or fears occupied the man? Not at all, nor did the man share with the passing boy what he thought. Now he's gone. Back from that piss and many another, I can well imagine the mystery I must be to my son. Has much changed but the date and where the man fought? Most men, most times, abide in peace, leastwise not always angry or afraid they cannot save their children from the gas or the abyss about which God lied. Yet, when the boy dreams through the room in the movement of his body there's a sleepiness to make the man weep for himself, his father and the boy who comes to the darkness unafraid.