Not Even Time

These broken, shattered pieces of me are aching My selfish heart cracking and breaking Can the healing of the rain Ease your undying pain Like a brat I helplessly cling to you Unaware of just what my venom does to you Until it is too late to take back the sting To change this monstrousness I have become…this thing Never once did you really hate me And alone I never wanted to be But my deranged mine created a scenario…a belief that you did not want me around And I pushed you away…shoved you to the ground And I can never undo this hurtful crime Nothing can make this guilt and pain go away…not even time