Never Good Enough

(Listen to Lauren Daigle’s song “You Say” This song encourages and inspires me.) Never Good Enough The small insidious voice that tells me “You can never measure up!” Wars are being fought in the recesses of my spirit!!! The soldiers are battling from both sides To strive for perfect But never meet the mark. The voice of my father echoes like a loudspeaker Why didn’t you get 100? But dad, “98 is pretty good…” “Never good enough… you can always improve!” Pushing and pushing to always keep trying! Never giving up… The negative chatter in my mind like a group of dogs barking throughout the neighbourhood at one travelling squirrel at 6am… I spoke the truth quietly To those dark and buried lies I thought they were long ago, dispelled. Only to find they silently and stealthily crawled back through the crevices and into my head From deep, deep below. The time has come I must scream the truth. “You are good enough!” Emancipation has begun! Its time to dig them out and thrust them far away, But they cling like a vine to a trellis as I pull the roots, unearthing their lies These tenacious weeds to my soul are exposed and laid bare! Quietness at last, A peaceful reprieve. Striving for excellence but not driven by this conflict!! Grace Daub November 9, 2021