My Persona's Adventurous Quests

Feeling like a particle of dust in the expanse of existence I keep trying to find myself Hoping, when I would do so, That I would find the anchor that I need To feel at home while being myself! I searched for myself in the faces of people that I met And was only met with pretense People pretend to wish to smile People pretend to care People pretend to be happy People and their pretentions, I decided Is not about being me! I searched for myself in the behavior of people towards me And was only met with selfishness People aim only to satisfy their ego Ready to harm me and break me Without any sense of pity towards the mess that I am People and their cruelty, I decided Is not about being me! I searched for myself in the feelings of people towards me And was only met with indifference People care only to please themselves People care not about pure intentions About naïve temperaments and certainly not About being an orthodox romantic living in a fast world People and their feelings, I decided Is not about being me! I searched for myself in my own deep self Am I the words that emanate from me Am I the songs I listen to Am I the clothes that I wear Am I the actions of time over my body Am I the purpose I have set for myself in life Am I the choices that I make in life Am I the facets that I show to the world Or those which I hide, deep in closets? Pray, after searching the within and without, I decided that my essence remains unknowable I am not that which I believe I am I am not that which the world deems me to be I am mystery and shall have to keep on searching To be able to get to know me!