My Lack of Lucky Charm

You raise me up above the mountains You bring me below the vibrant valleys You allow me to weep happy fountains When I walk in your bright alleys Enormous in envy my heart is Nervouscited for what lies ahead...fed the bread of blasted-away dread I don't need a cookie or a kiss I just want more recognition...intuition inspiration sparks instead... I weep because I haven't done actions and interactions the way I wanted to I deep sleep and reap what I sow and I aimed to do is for the sake of seeing you Not to see you depart from my arms...I welcome you with open and closed arms You were my lucky charms...a healing with no harms... I don't take much for granite Personal nervous anxiety and stage fright follow me wherever I go, even with my own flow I'm not falling away bit by bit Confidence and humility crown my head with gracious, precious glow Helped each other out We were against each other at one point...you were on a different team I didn't pout and shout I just let it be and tried to beat the race of frustration and that test I detest - it was all, but a scary dream Breaking by the seams Mend my torn-up dreams Your dazzling star still gleams Inside of you...inside of me it seems Unpredictable risk Spin me around in the bowl You're my mere whisk... I know you think me as bull Just don't think you're top dog I dig your beat as a whole But you're being an attention hog Stop and think...stop being so self-centered and your music needs some rhythm, sugar and spice and something beautiful and something that used soul and all, you know? Something passionately cool with personality that takes its wild toll No longer a people pleaser I'm a dancer...teaser... My personality reflect his and her...feminine, masculine sides... I get so tired of being judged by my confidence...I'm riding my ride of prides and my shadow no longer hides My ego is on the edge... My reputation is higher than a hedge Break me, I dare you, up up and down down feelings Dealing with these emo-tions... Peel away the pain...brush off the useless peelings Give me some healing potions Hurt feelings due to...friend foes Territorial like a dog Bog collects on my filthy ol toes... Flowing free like fog Music so therapeutic in my ears I longed for the melodious harmony to pound me with eager affection for years Drama trauma tranquilizes me, Yet strangles me...hates on harmfully Rumor has it that I'm ashamed of who I am Rumors, like tumors, give me goosebumps I accept myself for who I am - God's roaming lamb I am rocking back and forth like moving camel humps Fearless fire drives my desire above the ceiling The chandelier sky is like a diamond, so dynamic and crystal clear... I'm under the roof of my father...slowly healing Holding on to everyone and everything I had and have in this day in age oh so dear... I'm just a nervous wreck I suppose around these crazy, cawing crows I got out of my comfort zone all alone, on my own Doing be nosing into my business of poetry and prose Around strangers and fans and friends and family...I'm a nutrition-lacking back bone Ima comin' ho-home So I will I will make my my way I know where to roam I'm coming to my haven today I'm truly trying to maintain balance In a spunky prance while I crazy dance I'm on beat on fleek and I am a beat geek I'm a creative nerd that writes with his might till my hands grow week I can't guarantee that I am a lucky person I lack lucky charms in my life, left unharmed Effects of the bible have taken course in my life...consequences of my faith isn't quite done You are pretty charming...with your speech of charismatic optimistic confidence - under your spell, magically charmed and then...ALARMED!