My ADHD

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder What does that mean? Does it mean I'm unmotivated, Just a lazy teen? I think there's so much more Maybe I'm misunderstood It could be the reason Why I can't just be good Throughout my life I've been judged and brought down For my actions, my emotions So I set them down; I put up my mask To protect myself So I can look normal But it doesn't always help My mind still wanders My Attention still lacking This Deficit in my mind But I keep on acting; I'm too Hyperactive My grades reflect it The Disorder in my life It's all too hectic But that's besides the point There's more to the story I was put on medication And it works for me; My mind is reeled in I'm much more focused But there are some things That I'm beginning to notice I don't feel myself My throat is more dry I can't bring myself to eat And I think I know why; They said some of this would happen But they never could prepare me For the mental meat grinder I'd experience daily The day begins I take my meds And so begins the fight For order in my head; I'm focused in class My Attention truly there But the lack of feeling Leaves my day bare Once the meds wear off And I'm left alone The feelings explode So I become their drone; I become more impulsive My feelings take over I have too much energy And I lose all my focus Everything's harder to do I forget all of my work My life's still unorganized And my head's getting worse; I spiral, I fall Lost in my thoughts By the time I'm back Everything's gone The due date is past I'm beginning to panic Am I bad kid? How do I manage? Too many priorities So much to do But I can't give up I must push through I'll take my meds Since they can help me focus Will they help others? I don't fully know this; I encourage those struggling With ADHD like me To give them a try And maybe you'll see