Mum Guilt

Early mornings the kids awake But I feel guilt ‘cos I want a break Just 5 minutes to clear my head To drink my coffee and sit in bed. Longing to have children The heartache and the pain The damage took its toll Upon my body and my brain Here I am now, a mother Brimming full of pride But that doesn’t stop the feelings That reside still deep inside Guilt when it’s unfounded Can erode you to your core I want my coffee peace time Just 5 minutes and no more I will be really honest That sometimes I’m filled with dread When I hear the constant “mummy” A cacophony in my head. Remorse can be as painful As the deed that made it so I shout, I snap and then I feel The lowest of the low I aim to learn to take a breath When I feel the ire rising To have a dash more patience And to be more compromising. I want to look back on this day And see I’ve made some changes To listen more with patience In our positive exchanges.