Mixed Emotions

Without you I can't get to where I need to go, Everything is fast for others But to me it's slow, Money needs to be made, Bills need to be paid, Focus on your daughter's education for her to get better grades, Get along with the mother for your daughter's sake, But how can you feel that if you and her can't relate, The same information on the same plate, Kinda makes you wonder why you started talking in the first place, You've accepted yourself and moved on with life, But how can you continue the path with her if she still upset about a mistake, An accident happen kept me leaning backwards instead of forwards, Goals pushed to the side instead of following towards, That lifetime achievement awards, You see the more you hold back, The more time for another to take your shine, I been running away from myself, Instead taking what's mine, Each day and night I predict life is fine, Not knowing that I'm killing myself inside, Instead of squeezing my life of rhymes, My mind is in a maze, My heart is weak, And my voice isn't brave, Brave enough to flow water from my tongue, When I'm creating waves, I'm stuck like glue, Unable to move, So all I see is the same picture, The pain is eating me alive, To where I lean towards that bottle of liquor, Or that bag of weed, Cause maybe the smoke will clear the pain and heal my wounds, Only to know the pain is not completely gone it will be back soon, But it felt good for 3 hours being on top of the moon, If my life is like this, Then I need to switch my plans up, Take care of my responsibilities and man up, Delete the negative around me, For a positive feeling when I stand up, Life is too short to give it away, And take a chance, So climb on to the world and begin to dance, You only got one so take it, And die with love in your heart,