Merci, Dieu

And here comes another sleepless night I try to make light of it with all my might I have spent my hours and minutes uselessly…feeling numb sensations I pray for forgiveness for giving in to my wicked, yet exhilarating temptations I am anticipating that my future will work out alright I have so many plans that I am now confused tonight I try to read the bible daily and it gets difficult to understand it completely I want to abide and be obedient to His wisdom that was made beautifully My muse has been murdering my mindset for years on end I am so sick of the abuse I go through on a daily basis You know what I need? I need a mend that I can comprehend I am so tired of being lazy and acting crazy in my abyss I wander away into my fantasy world once more I ponder away the thoughts that are overwhelmingly harmful and absolutely negative I have grown accustomed to Your grace galore I need to open ajar the opportunities that lie ahead…hope it’s not far too expensive There is benevolence and bravery in my brazen heart I am trying to have humility and true zealousness As well as focus on painting some bizarre, abstract art I am crying from the inside – relieve my sadness And here comes another sleepless night I am oh so fervently taking flight all night long, all night long You have frightened me with your plight I am oh so thankful that God has mercy on me all along, all along **Merci Dieu means Thank You, God in French.. :)**