Maybe I miss

The locked poem of my heart When unbound by its chains Will reveal it's frozen secrets Thaw them out again All that can be mustered Of this broken and abused soul If I bestow this gift Please hold it with care And please don't break me again... Maybe I miss a place to call home That wasn't broken and shattered Now I search and continue to roam For somewhere that truly matters Maybe I miss chill weekends nights We'll cook something special to desire Or maybe we'll order out something just right Your company is all that I require Maybe I miss not being alone Not being the only one to fend Share somebody who I can call my own With time I eagerly spend Maybe I miss having people to love Who know me inside and out Relationships with them that fit like a glove Never wanting to be without Maybe I miss those special events That my younger self took for granted Oh the sights I saw, and places I went And now months go by empty handed But now I'm a vagabond upon this realm A home I might never again find The weight of this world just overwhelms My fragile state of mind But now what was once a waterfall Has frozen up and sealed its magic With love it may again dethaw And heal what was traumatic But now life is only survival Not living, but just existing Keeping from being suicidal My battle that's forever persisting Abused by a father Unloved by a mother Everything I gave Is buried in the grave Betrayed by friends Again and again Hanging over a ravine Stuck in the in-between The girl who emerged Had drastically diverged Survived the demons To become one too This is who I am now Will you love me just the same? Or perhaps..you never knew? The girl who stood in her place And maybe she's the one I miss...