Make It Through

Make it through.... There's a GIGANTIC mountain before me that I MUST climb Its lonely and SCARY & Its soley MINE Its about moving forward being happy now that your gone Its about believing in my self Its about being STRONG CANT show fear or that your weak This enourmous mountain has a name and Its GRIEF IT grabs hold so tight like no other MY first reaction is to run run for cover IM going to TRY to conquer the Mountain For YOU MY precious Mother DEEP down I know you would hate to she me suffer I need to put on my game face and get a bit tougher You have to have the drive and motivation to climb that hill You have my WORD Mom for you I will IT would hurt you deep to see me IN so much pain Yet I CANT control it you know ME EMOTIONAL thats my middle name I need to muster all the energy that I have from the inside This time WONT have your strength as my guide Without YOU going to be a bumpy ride In me Your motivating spirit forever lives A smile on my face and I repeat your words "move forward it is what it is" THE time is now too Important to hesitate FOR ME personally a difficult journey to make Its to you Mom this Trip I dedicate ALL the wisdom you have shared OVER the years resonates When I make it through together we can celebrate AS I now know Grief effects us all it doesn't discriminate You have to love yourself enough.. Because Grief doesn't allienate If you want to TRULY heal have to be willing to PARTICIPATE NO time to be sad and withdrawn ONE thing you have taught me is That life doesn't wait it carries on I want to believe and understand that your not coming back too permanent for me I REFUSE TO accept that Rather this just a temporary break Until we MEET beyond heavens gate LIVING in me there IS a hidden strength Have to tell myself I am worthy AND fully competent I know this about myself cant let my feelings be denied If I don't make it Everything I told you about me being OK was just a lie Important I keep MY PROMISES to you THATS WHAT will help to see me through I am unprepared to make the journey without YOU by my side have to JOIN the LIVING spread my wings and fly ON this self discovery I will remember all that you GAVE YOU inspired me until the end you were smiling strong & brave I have got a challenge a head of me filled with good times and bad MISS U SO much you are the BEST FRIEND that I ever had "you just be YOU don't follow the crowd" GREAT piece of a advice Mom gonna make you proud YOU would tell me one step at a time you WILL be OK DON'T worry about tomorrow TRY & make it through TODAY I LONG for your PRESENCE to show me the way Life goes on thats what youd say Followed BY "I BELIEVE IN you" & remember tomorrows another day" I so cherish your words of wisdom TO me they always MADE perfect sense NEVER will I forget every precious moment that we spent Without YOU gonna be a lonely existence BUT because you would want me to live on I will persavere go the distance If Ive got anything on my side Its my persistence! FOR YOU I will go the long way instead of the path of least resistence Everything in life now more difficult without your existence For you Mom I will push forward to heal I Promise I WONT quit Because in my heart I know thats how you would want it And whenever I make it to the other side of this Grief and anamosity I have COMFORT in knowing MY biggest cheerleader will be there cheering for ME