Lost

I can not hope, I dare not dream I should not speak, for I might scream So full and yet so empty, this hole I have in my heart Too weak to hold it together, so tired of falling apart Memories of the sunshine and a time when I could smile Was it really so much better then, or was I in denial? Now I am numb-lost inside myself-and I can't see the light Where is my will to keep going? Where is my strength to fight? Never truly feeling at peace, no matter how hard I try Never truly forgiving myself for letting my life pass me by What's left to hold on to? I feel like I've already let go How do I accept the loss of the me I used to know?