Lately Thinking I

Lately i've been thinking Am i blue or am i pink Am i living out this life in real time Or merely following the highlights Can i or could have indeed done anything different Made better choices gone right instead of left Or is it and was it all predestined And i just a passenger or guide Here is where i am Where i was simply unavoidably meant to be Until my clock expires and so do i Not a second more or less to buy Where i stand is where i die Lately i've been thinking I think to much Wishing what limited time i have away Complaining rather than being grateful and relishing All the thing's i am bound to miss Thing's i wish i should and could have done But put off in favour of doing nothing of consequence Worthy of a single memory or anecdote to last me or keep me company for eternity If someone was in death to ask