In My Heart

He's broken into my heart Climbed all the walls of my self protection So precariously constructed Past my guard against a possibility of being wounded and betrayed My soul laid bare before him to crush or embrace If I told him, How will he react? I value our friendship more than he may even know So I keep quiet With one glance from his charming blue eyes, My world turned into a spinning spiral But I am absolutely powerless to stop it all this madness of a fairy tale story Unfolding right before my eyes I'm falling hard and fast, It feels as if I've jumped into an endless free fall When will I land? Where will I fall? It's so unclear to me at this moment What all this might transpire into with time Does he think about me As much as I think about him? What if my hopes for him are shallow? Am I being biased and blinded? These are the questions that haunt me everyday So no confession escapes my lips still My once seemingly innocent friendship with him Has quickly transpired into a fascinating, Though frustrating, One-sided love affair His mysterious and shy demure has rendered me captive Alluring me to a place of no return Why is this so difficult? If only my walls had been higher, Thicker But then I ask myself, "Maybe, I really want him there?" Though my answer may scare me slightly, I can't hide from myself, I know I am now Madly and hopelessly in love With this sweet boy I want to tell him so badly But arrows of self-doubt invade my thoughts He couldn't like me, Not possibly So I stay quiet still But the one thing that matters the most is this, I hope he will still be there, Waiting, To catch me when I fall