I Wish I Was the Controller of My Wires

I wish my body had a control panel; a back door that led to monitors and controls Lights of emotions that are controlled by switches Digital displays in the form of actions I long to change the settings, adjust the frequencies Disconnect some wires and reinforce others; Rip away the scrawny cords that feed to weakness, self loathing and despair Then, wrap the cords leading to confidence, self assurance and love in electrical tape so strong no wire cutters could penetrate I want to flip some switches off indefinitely; hate and greed Then, prevent some from ever adjusting; love and empathy I wish I could control my lights and displays, I wish I could switch off negative feelings and actions I wish I was the controller of my wires. I wish I had a control panel.