I Killed Myself

What a beautiful day ! Said me as I woke up feeling so tiny Under the enormous sky above me, And the incessant greenery That hugged me from beneath Oh ! How gorgeous it felt !! Though a bit confused to find Not a single soul around, Yet a hundred and one times Lighter I was than yesterday . Oh ! How patiently had I waited for this ! Tell me, oh God ! Where is my heart pain gone ? Why do my feet not feel the tenderness of the grass ? Why do my arms move with the slightest wind ? Why do I not remember where I woke up to ? Tell me , oh God ! Where do I go now ? I walked and walked Expressionless and empty Feeling so vacant from inside Dad would have lifted me up Mom would have caressed me Oh ! How badly do I miss them Broken and worthless , I slept again and woke up In my house this time I saw my parents I had been dreaming Was I happy ? No Was I sad ? No Why ? I saw MYSELF in my room Sleeping as if I would never wake up My face looked pale My limbs were numb I touched myself and detected somehow My body necessitated me ! So why did it shove me away when I attempted to throw in ? I realised I could never get in I realised I could never wake up I realised I could never live I realised I was dead I killed myself And I tried to unkill myself !