I Could Not Do It Before

I Could Not Do It Before By Dr. Tina Medina I could not do it before I dare not shut the door My heart yearned for something more I loved you to the core Even though I did not keep score It was obvious who loved who more Yet what for? Yet what for? It may be time to shut the door The door to my heart is what we are talking about It can’t be bought with finances, prestige, and clout The key was always within me You thought it was yours at any liberty But you do not define me I was once blind about you, but now I can see Today I awoke and something was anew I did not even have a clue Yet I knew there was something I had to do I had to shut the door For a promise of so much more There was a proposal to me on a silver platter Shut the door, the time is latter You, my daughter deserves so much more Do not let him treat you bad as I promise to settle up the score All because I want you to have more Do not make the mistake He is not a piece of cake If you dare to move forward in motion to me Do you think I will not answer your plea? I have seen the way he has treated you There is no excuse, you are not a person in lieu One day, a revelation of you will ensue Yet you may not want him to pursue His love is not strong as glue I simply thought you knew The past is the past Yet the negative emotional roller coaster still last Why is he always moving so fast? He is quick to throw you into an emotional cast All at your expense to see how long will this last It is to your advantage to let him go You can’t stay with him emotionally low You woke up today Because I had something to say The message was for you and there was no delay Push him away because all he wants to do is play Letting go of our problems of the past only means you value yourself first, no longer last I loved him more Yet somebody upstairs was keeping tight score The verdict is in There is no more time for a conversational spin Your smooth words no longer affect me I just gained a prophetic victory I was blind about your ways, but now I can see My love was not for sale But it has rare weight on the trust and loyalty scale I am not looking for any male My words can make you pale The truth is that you made my heart ail True emotions expressed will never fail I just read your damn mail Year after year, I could not shut the door But in 2017, God says there is something more Oh my God, there is something more if I dare shut the door Why could I not do it before? Why could I not shut the door? What was I waiting for? The time is now as my career is ready to soar For many years I loved you, and it simply did not matter Your lost in the game of lots of women, scoring, running, and scatter What happens to you in the latter? My love, my compassion and my integrity is in tact I can no longer be lost in your comedy act Oh, that’s a fact I dare not to be a part of your tactical plan The one in which you think I really need a man The one in which I am a pawn in your game of chess I am so sorry, I am out of this emotional mess The plan in which you think I would do anything for you The plan that allows you freedom to do what you do The plan that hurt me and my integrity Because it is just not part of me As I long for truth and liberty Have you ever loved someone that brought you so much inner pain? It’s not you at all, it is all his inner heart strain! You loved at a level that he caused you to be emotionally drained Something is wrong with this picture, its out of frame Or maybe he just lost at his own game He took your love and used it like fuel All to boost himself up to act really cool Today, your plan was dismantled by heaven above All because of some serious love I am a Daughter of the King I bear His signet ring I do not need your imitation bling I have to stop myself and sing Being free from potential death is a beautiful thing I was told if I shut this door, a new life awaits me God finally has heard my plea A deal is on the table I can only pursue it if I am able This is no fairy tale or fable A new life, one that I have wanted for and dreamed about It has nothing to do with money or clout It is all about the writing and the poetry in motion It’s all about the words and not the Southern gentlemen’s sly potion You, my former love are obsessed with material things and objects of high value Yet they are not the essence of you The riches of our heart are not based on the type of cars we drive What really matters is that you are spiritually alive My God says there is something more So I have to shut this door I have to be strong now because there is more I have to shut this door I am sorry to let you go, but what if there is really something more? All I have is a promise from the King A new version of my life, a very precious thing I would rather take it than staying in the dark and the spiritual strife I really need more precious life I do not like the omission of truth that you can cut like a knife The door is shut now I really do not know how It happened so fast, there was no time to react The most important thing is that I never lost track It happened today That is all I have to say It happened today You can go back and play