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How I Really Feel

I used to believe that I could not go
a day without your smile.
   The proverb gives an inch,
She wanted a mile.

   The day arrived, it was hard,
The next was harder.
   The sun went away,
My world grew darker.

   I knew that sinking feeling would
Stay a life time.
   I now understand why 
They say love is blind.

   Losing you is not an event that
 happens once it occurs over and over.
   I hit rock bottom, I could
Not sink any lower.

   I lose you every time,
I think about you.
   I'm red with rage or
Deep dark blue.

   I lose you every time
I drink a cup of tea.
   I lose you every time
I see an amputee.

   I lose you when I see
A chevron gas station.
   My world full of regret
And devastation.

   I lose you when,
 I hear music,
   It is no longer
 therapeutic.

   I lose you when I see a
Dark haired boy.
   I truly believed you were
The real Mc coy.

   I lose you every time I
See a woman or a girl.
   When you loved me,
It was out of this world.

   I lose you when I'm
In a store.
   I lose you every,
 seven - twenty-four.

   I lose you every night when
I lay alone in my bed.
   I lost you when I was alive,
I lose you when I'm dead.

   I lose you every day,
My heart will never heal.
   I wish you knew,
How I really feel.

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Darlene De Beaulieu Date: 3/19/2022 11:54:00 AM Hello Debbie Middaugh, oh, I feel your pain of a loss. The heartache is strong. You have a deep true loss for this person. Blesings my friend. Blessings my friend. Login to Reply Darlene De Beaulieu Date: 3/19/2022 3:39:00 PM It is now 6 years past since my husband passed. I am stronger now, I have moved on. Ready to begin again. Glad to hear you are doing better now. You are welcome Debbie. Hugs. Darlene De Beaulieu Date: 3/19/2022 3:37:00 PM Hello Debbie, It is normal to feel pain in your emotions. I did a lot of crying to My body shook I have been there. I chose a poem from one of the poets and read it until I healed. It helped me a lot. My body shook when I cried. I thought i would break. Debbie Middaugh Date: 3/19/2022 2:53:00 PM Hello Darlene, I feel pain and my emotions. Every time I write down poems, I heal another part of me. My goodness I'm better than I used to be. I would cry for days. I have not shed a tear in over 4 months. Thank you, I enjoy the conversation with you....