Hope

If I ever meet depression in the physical form I will inflict more damage than a biblical storm. Invading my mind like satanic parasites, feasting on my happiness bite after bite. I'm hating myself for the person I've become, I'm helpless to it, pathetic weak and dumb. Thwarted and fallen, appallingly unproductive. The torment insurgence transforms me destructive. I'm useless and failing, increasingly alien, these aint excuses, it's depression I'm wailing. I'm left handed, right handed, ADHD, depression, self loathing and anxiety. My ambition went missing with drive and dreams, my confidence in submission to doubt that gleams, these parasites co-ordinate as an efficient team. My one weapon is hope, and hope is supreme. 7/6/2019