Hell and Back

Clouds close in Now darkened skies Filled with fear And many cries Children shouting Men are scared Mothers doubting People died and no one cared Once in danger People become selfish Everyone became a stranger And the world became hellish Loneliness now sings from above And anger echo’s from below Everyone abandoned the ones you loved Now it’s raining pain and sorrow I feel watched Surrounded indeed Buildings notched Everyone is filled with greed It’s now our life Or our sanity I’ve already died twice And lost my humanity I lost my life My soul is gone This endless strife Why do I bother to carry on A flock of crows Forgiving none Fetching souls No one can run Here I stand Full of fear Left with few hand in hand I just wish I could disappear This is a slaughter Filled with laughter Why would you do this to me Will this last for eternity The world is now rubble Reduced to ash Breathing alone is a struggle Everything looks like trash I can’t explain All this pain I swear I can’t be sane Hatred now will reign The gust of wind I’m swept away Have I sinned Is this the price I pay Ground is shaking Tearing now My heart is aching And now gone somehow I can’t explain This searing pain I can’t contain It doesn’t matter, I’m not sane The rain is blood The lakes are fire My face is to the mud And the flames keep getting higher It’s getting hot It’s hard to see Flames are everywhere This cannot be My eyes are melting Draining from my skull This pain is overwhelming And I can only sit in this flaming hole I have died ten times now I don’t know why, I don’t know how But every time I die I go through it all again somehow Flames surround me Yet I feel so cold Does no one feel sympathy Because my pain is now tenfold Everything is gone Though my eyes are back It’s only black but feels so wrong Why am I here and for how long A heavy pain rushes over me But now that’s nothing new to see I’m now drowning in tears Flashbacks, memories and fears I close my eyes Cover my ears Everything’s quiet Everything disappears As my eyes open They are flushed with white It aches my eyes but feels great Maybe Jesus will give me a clean slate I lay floating in this room of white I don’t mind at all, not even slight I will rest till something happens to me Cause there is nothing to do till there is something to see Could this be the end of my agony?