Gypsy Curse

I fell into a spiral and it seems there’s no way out. Strength is leaving my body all hope replaced by doubt. I think what broke my heart, crept into my soul as well. My mind just goes in circles and I’m trapped in this living hell. The strangest thing I’ve noticed after being here so long, is that I’m starting to believe this might be where I belong. Anxiety and depression are like a double gypsy curse. The harder you fight to get out makes the waves seem even worse. Trying hard to keep from drowning, but still wanting to let go. One minute begging God to take you, in the next minute screaming no. I finally started building huge walls inside my mind. Not even wanting to peer over, afraid of what I’d find.