Forever Tracey-She Never Stopped Loving Me

I was born before her- but she existed long before my life's debut. Ancient Spirit....... Old Soul!....Really Old Soul! The "Great I AM" knows her as "Tracey, You AM!" As a young girl she was giving advice to adults....... they would listen and take it to heart! SERIOUSLY!!! That was a sign! She was always there..... ALWAYS- but I wasn't! M.I.A. dad was my status. There's that voice again..... "But she never stopped loving me- She NEVER stopped loving me!" She kept growing, and I...... was not there. Time does not have a "recapture lost moments" in life button, and we don't have the ability to see memories that we weren't present to help create! Sporadic contact of that nature should be a punishable offense! Capital punishment for detrimental treatment of a young girl's heart! That voice....... that voice keeps saying- "But she never stopped loving me!- She NEVER stopped loving me!" As her growing stature started catching up with her way out in front maturity and the male species found her attractive.... when I should have been there with an axe handle in the left hand and a "Louisville" slugger in the right- I wasn't there....... I WAS NOT THERE! I hear it again..... that voice keeps saying- "But she never stopped loving me!- She NEVER stopped loving me!" Educated, very intelligent, very spiritually insightful, a true "daughter of GOD".... and I. HE blessed me with her! I would ALWAYS be in her prayers! I COULD FEEL THIS THING!!...... but I couldn't put my finger on it to understand it! Even when time would pass by without a word from me she would ask HIM to keep me safe and hoped one day, one day I would come to HIM! Unbeknownst to me my steps in this life were being guided by her with HIS help! Yeah.......That's right- The other way around! The "Great I AM"....... HE was listening to her!!! WOW!........ Talk about being connected! Where is this voice coming from?????- "But she never stopped loving me!- She NEVER stopped loving me!" In time I felt this- (I really don't know how to describe it) tug from deep within and something started happening to me! "What the....... WHAT IS GOING ON???" I blurted out within! Next thing I knew I was coming to HIM requesting HIS assistance in keeping my steps on the straight and narrow path! Now I know........ I NOW KNOW HE WAS LISTENING TO HER!!! She had both of HIS ears and HIS undivided attention because not only was I guided to HIM without reservation, mind you, but HE put us back together with a "godly spiritual superglue" that only HE uses and it can't be bought nor found anywhere in this world! Though I can't change the past I CAN determine now, (with HIS guiding hand) the future! I keep hearing that voice saying over and over and over- "But she never stopped loving me!- She NEVER stopped loving me!" Geographically, there is distance now but this high tech world has erased that! She has "absolute eminent domain" in my heart and on my mind these days! She is never more than a heartbeat's thought away from me now- even at this very moment! We talk....we text....and we email! We email....we text....and we talk! Testimony to the modern wonders of mankind! ??? Ever smile so much at the sound of a voice that the corners of your mouth touch together at the back of your head?!?!? Mine do..... weird sight! Everyday now while kneeling and with head bowed I say "THANK YOU" to HIM for doing what only HE COULD DO, DID DO and CAN DO! YOU know who YOU are and....... "YOU ARE TRULY AWESOME!" And that voice- that voice that kept repeating on a loop between my heart and my mind, I know it was she whispering in YOUR ear- "Today, don't forget to tell him!- Ok, don't forget to tell him!" (I can hear her asking) .......AND YOU DIDN'T!!! YOU have told me to ALWAYS remember and repeat over and over and over again...... "But she never stopped loving me!- She NEVER stopped loving me!