First Kill

I killed someone today I just put her to sleep I wish I never did it cuz now I cannot sleep I took her life to save her from all the pain and misery She's in a better place now her life is just a mystery For all the pain I feel inside I pray the lord forgives me Cuz if he doesn't I don't know what will become of me I feel ashamed I feel so sick I throw up everytime I hear her voice inside my head screaming all the time There's blood on my shirt, on my hands and all over my face I got thoughts of you touching me with a warm gentle embrace I knew you for a short time and couldn't wait to see you But the truth of the matter is that you will never live to I have to live with this for the rest of my life Sitting in that waiting room it's like I held the knife No matter what the circumstances there's no justifications for my actions Because despite our financial difficulties there's always adoption I killed someone today I just put her to sleep I wish I never did it cuz now I cannot sleep