Feeling So Down

I just want to hurt myself I just don't know why My family's my world Now I need to cry This is so really bizarre Feel like driving a car I can't do that I've had a drink Am I really on the brink Its a dark place I'm sat in Switch on the light Let my life begin I'm ready to fight I've had a good day and beaten the thoughts Happy with all of my cohorts But now it is night the bad thoughts are strong Trying to convince I dont belong What is going on in my brain I know I'm not really insane A bit confused at this time Fight it now get in line Its really hard I must confess My head says one thing My heart says the rest I need sleep that's for sure Tomorows the day I find a cure After a little sleep I do wake cranky oh for goodness sake The same feelings are in my head Remain positive the counsellers said A new day begins so does grounding I'm so down need to look at my surroundings Listening to the chirps of the birds Telling me not to be so absurd Feeling the wind upon my face I'm  a member of the human race The smells around me are so sweet Brings me back too my feet Take today as a new beginning The new chapter of me winning Black dog still sits on my shoulder But hey I'm another day older