Fearful Avoidant

I've been sneezing since June from the dust. I took bupropion with mountain dew- Now I can't sleep, my heart is beating fast, I'm a little dizzy and a bit nauseous. Vesta told me not to lose my head But I was having so much fun! I couldn't find Hera or Venus But Herne told me there's no harm. All their lights are big and bright- Their ichor is burning my skin. All the stories that never started, These are heartaches on the big screen. Dislocation of emotions- No one to blame, I did it to myself. I keep seeing what isn't there, In my head I always paint them well. Since I can't find mine, I can't let you in- Dear Eros, I hope you have your key. If I could go back to the day we met- Even with hindsight, I won't leave them be.