Disabled Heart

I reach for life but my body is empty, I look around and all I can see is darkness. I call for help but nobody seems to be there for me. I look inside of me and I am lost in the mist. Everybody has lost faith in me everybody hates me. How do I reverse my doings how do change the past. Deep inside of me I feel broken I feel pain. I wish you’d understand why I did it. I wish they'd find it in their hearts to forgive me. I did wrong but I feel like I did right. I have caused so much pain to so many people. People regarded me as stupid they did not believe in me. How do I reverse all that I have caused how do I patch things up with those who once believed in me.