Difficult to Find

12/13/23 Secrets still buried Stories in the wind got carried Historical accounts occasionally varied The truth can be sad and scary We've barely Discovered much so spare me The same can be said for things happening fairly Since the dawn of time it occurred rarely Causes with a dark past humans still worshipping The cauldron folks continue stirring Waters people are murking So much unknown, instead of starting to worry I try to find answers but it can't be done in a hurry Somewhat disturbing And blood curdling Could it be water that caused such a shape and curving? This planet twirling at 1000 mph constantly whirling Every night tossing and turning I was hurting My vision sometimes blurring Minimal ground I've been traversing This weed I'm endlessly burning Toward a fast death I'm hurling It's difficult to find the right wording The cycle still circling The truth is emerging And surfacing Energy dispersing Or combining and converting Then it starts surging To some it's unnerving During my time on Earth I'm searching No matter if others are deterring I'm still unearthing Sometimes smirking Nearby curbing I'm determining It can never be found by purchasing It's concerning For so long people have been serving Evil always lurking Showing no mercy I'm constantly learning During this journey No adjourning The hands of time turning There's endless controversy That's occurring It's not always working Such concepts use to irk me (Birds sing above Earthlings) or (birdies chirping above earthlings) It briefly takes the mind off the worst things Yet I still feel like cursing Toward no destination I've been surfing Mind all over the place still swerving For more I'm yearning Something inside churning A fool splurging Yet again swirling down the drain go my earnings I still can't get it right even after rehearsing What a joke feeling like a ghost the recipient of shirking How am I already not on a gurney?