Decaying As I Wander On His Road

Got caught in a shimmering, glimmering summer haze Gone through anxiety and hallucinations — hate this phase Don’t discard me when I’m trekking this road This road of God’s abode…I admire and abide in it — He’s my joyous ode I’m going through this heaven in the hellish world I live in I can’t even speak, having no words in mind; losing my mind — how have you been? I’m bruising bewilderment and replacing it with the scars of the past wisdom I cherish most Living life laid back in the Arizona coast Shallow heart, can you beat some more? Shallow breathing, can you breathe to the core? Swallow your pride and you’re on life’s ride all over again I have tried to move my tiresome soul and I’m a poet without his pen Bound to the chains of catastrophe Where I can never be free, truly free I hope I can be close to you Through thick and thin… Ricocheting and feeling blue Deep down within, within But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Wanted to be extremely needed Gone away with the breeze of yesteryears of so many cheers My garden has been weeded Don’t discard me when trekking the road of my endless tears I have mixed emotions Hitting me like waves of the oceans In my mind’s eye That, I can’t deny But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Release me, relieve me Free me, that’s my only plea Catastrophe flies by Commotion is a mere goodbye Now, peace is sown with those who make peace Now, it is shown that you’re not a bicycle with grease You’re a pineapple without its stem You’re a vineyard without its wine You’re a necklace without its gem Wishing and praying for love divine My one and only has gone astray She has gone awry this shining day Well done, wisdom in my headspace You’ve done your grace, your grace You’re the sweat and grimace to my face I have to keep pace in life’s difficult race I don’t have to belong to have fun Let this wickedly wonderful day begin Waiting for the day to be truly done Deep down within, deep down within But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… If I can’t be with you, I’d be full of rue…who knew… I’d end up feeling lonely Grief and relief is temporary But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Don’t desert me in the desert of lies I want to hello your goodbyes, byes How time flies, how time flies by As long as I try, I’ll try not to cry I’m stronger than I realize Sorry for my lows and highs Power is in my grasp now…desire is a welcome bow to my show of shamelessness I’m a sunflower in the sun after a replapse somehow and I’m feeling delirium and happiness But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Don’t discard me I am just a man who wants love from above Longing to be free I am just a man who needs to take wing like a dove But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Understand that I’m a butterfly out of his cocoon Even after the afternoon, even after a monsoon But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying… Fallen prey to a lack of praying… Thoughts of anguish replaying… In my brain train… All in vain… All in the drain… But, what comes down must come up! And I’m surely not the only one decaying as I wander on His narrow pathway Just don’t watch me seek prey like a predator of Decay…decaying day by day… I have fallen victim to shame… But, I’m not one to blame.. Shame just came out of the blue… It gave me you on my mind of rue