'cause, I Am a Survivor

I have spent my entire life searching for answers for questions that have no answers it seems like, where is my place in this existence (I have been on a journey with no destination) I think my compass needs an adjustment so I can at last find my true north the places I have been are like cities on a map some nice and some just awful and in my head are monsters (just lurking and waiting) for when I am off guard to creep inside my thoughts with painful memories from the past like, my uncle molesting me at nine (hashtagmetoo)- or my dead cat limp in my arms (oh go away) back to the darkest realms of my mind (oh even the death of each beloved in technicolor and detail) I am just a hopeless traveler out of control seeking those peaceful meadows of life and each day I battle shadows from my past (my days spent on a wobbly bridge) as I try to cross the deep swamp of life . . . each day, I am a warrior seeking my true north ready to battle any creature from my past all the goblins hiding but by now I am a warrior trained and I will and I can . . .'cause I am a survivor ______________________________ January 10, 2018 Poetry/Narrative/'cause I'm a survivor Copyright Protected, ID 18-9815-65 All Rights Reserved. Written Under Pseudonym. Written for the contest, Speak Your Truth sponsor, Madison Demetros Fifth Place