Call Me Marionette

Call Me Marionette: Today I exist. I exist for no one, for nothing; I exist. I am not held to or defined by a devotion of any. My allegiances, however strong, have no contract to bear me. I dream of a day when my ambition aligns with the desires and necessities of the world. When my head and heart finally join in a magnificent eclipse. For then, I am a scholar, a student, a teacher, a lover. At my fingertips, the world will sit. Where I am the puppeteer, and the world is my marionette. I have the power to change, innovate, and create. I will make a difference. I will grab the sun and spin it on its axis so that no one will carry the burden of wondering if the sun will rise. I will wake at dawn every morning and push the ocean so the tide and the moon can harmonize. There are no bounds to this desire. Though there is no satisfaction in a world like mine. 7.6 billion people live on earth, and I am one. A grain of sand on the beach where I push the ocean. A single molecule on the sun that I carry. I find that I am not strong enough to carry the sun or to push the ocean. I recall a dream I once had, a dream of greatness in a world of inequality and disarray. A foolish thought to have, for I am inconsequential. I am not held to or defined by a devotion of any. I exist for no one, for nothing; I exist. Today I exist. Lauren Ferraro