Brewing Emotions

Filling me up to the brim with hope, My emotions slowly sliding down that slope. Suspicion building up, why is he hurrying? Tension climbing, crazy, worrying. Sadness, betrayal, sword sharp memories, Staying strong is harder than it seems. Drowning in an addiction to drugs, Hiding it all under the rug. Hollow, exposed, nowhere to go, Can’t show the stress, the sorrow. Danger around every corner, can never relax, No idea what will appear next. Can’t see past the haze of a hangover, Can’t move past what drove her. You stole my heart and won’t give it back, Told I’m narcissistic, but can't figure out what I lack.