Bloody Wrists

I'm sitting on the floor I'm crying so much more trying to erase this pain trying to forget your face sitting here with the blade in my hand running so slow blood dripping down in a deep red color flowing freely the way i want to feel I'm sitting on the floor holding my hand out I'm holding a bottle a bottle filled with pills I'm crying so hard the pain is unbearable I'm feeling so weak I'm sitting here on this floor holding a blade crying like crazy trying to take this pain away I'm trying my best trying to fight my eyelids feel heavy my door is so far the whispered yells to far falling deep in to sleep deep..deep..deep..deep I'm laying on a bed I'm so confused where am i? my throat feels sore my body screams in pain I'm looking around I'm in a small white room i try to move, my hands are stuck i try to get up i feel restraints what happened to me? I'm laying on a bed trying to get up my head hurts a nurse is here a shot is administered i drift to sleep I'm in the psych ward why am i here? I'm lying on a bed laying so still my wrists hurts to no end I'm crying out loud screaming and cussing my body hurts i can't remember all i remember are my bloody wrists and a bottle of pills all i remember is the pain i was in.....