Blissful Nights

Nothing beats the relief I felt those nights, Those nights where all the stress melted away, Four nights, total peace, no w’rry in sight. As the pills were sw’llowed, they lifted a weight. I was happy I’d n’ver wake up again, See my next birthday, or have a boyfriend. I thought I would leave this world as a teen, But I have never been more mistaken. The days that led up to those blissful nights, I updated my letters and went on, With false hope I’d no l’nger have to fight, Nothing but a dream that vanished at dawn. No matter how much I took, it ended the same, Vomiting in h’spital, pointed with blame.