Blank Space

Why can't my mind be a blank space Be empty of all the self-hate. Why can't my brain just not care When I'm treated worse for wear. All feelings do are drag you down A rabbit hole of anger and harm I just want to feel numb to it all And try not to care any more. 'Why are you sad?' They ask 'Just cheer up,' they say Wow as if I haven't tried that anyway. As if I am not trying to be sane When I'm down and feel depressed It's my emotions I'm forced to repress It's my feelings I try to hide To avoid being called selfish for feeling almost dead inside. I can't even tell anyone About how I feel or I'll be left undone So to avoid that I force myself to hide, Hide how I feel, blank space blank mind