Belonging

Why does everyone I love leave? No matter how hard I try to hold on, They always manage to go… Is this what is meant for me? Eternal Solitude? I should be grateful for the time their friendship has stayed with me But who should you share that gratitude with if everyone leaves you? So here I am, Left alone with my thoughts which made me wonder about my sense of belonging in this world. Am I meant to fit in this world? In some places I'm normal and in some places, I’m not normal enough. In some places, I can’t truly be myself because it’s such an issue for them. Some places I can’t speak for if I do I would regret it and then go back to self-loathing. So where do I belong? I’m friends with people at school but sometimes I feel guilty because I miss making memories with those from the past. I belong nowhere And am I okay with that? It’s a hard truth I can’t seem to swallow no matter how hard I try, No matter how many times life tries to teach me that I’m meant for solitude I won’t seem to listen. I’m too stubborn for that Somewhere deep down I think that everyone wants that friendship, Wants that sense of camaraderie, That feeling of belonging in this world.