Awake

AWAKE ~ IN and OUT ~ Spring arising, before morning light, I walk under the new epic sun The aroma of yesterday, gone Today's the day that will follow tomorrow I quickly walk a certain walk Unique is all I can display Watery eyes staying in the past While vehicles pass and pass Crosses lacking faith I stay awake and mend with my fate Foggy toys, I want to play I can't keep up with all your kicks I look, I stare, at the walls Bright and early, I step on old dolls I stay and feel, the way you want Lifeless, and still so full of energy Mad words, unconscious forces My sweet needs, now reside inside of you Mad, sad, and outside the box You close every door and keep me away from dark You only allow me to feel your morning light Why can't you let me see what's behind the shadows? Why do you turn on all the lights? I'm here the way you want me to be Happy, and merry, for the world to see This blindness will continue to spot Unless you wake up first and remove the dot You gave me the thirst, you once knew So filthy, so full of -spew Under this closed freaking door I'm exposed like the midday sun You bang my head on the wall, You killed me in a way that made me feel! I only answer to your call In and out a hoop~ like a ball In me, you can not find any real dreams! Inside you filled me with a raging scream Sssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm in wonder around your air castle Strange and hung on your mantle Stepping on a one footed slave Alert, alert Am I!!! I shake, we kiss, I wake, You sleep........................... I zip all things into one zipper. Pounding my hands against my ears Crazy, taking a jab upon all jabs Crazy, you say~ that's me everyday I'm up and I caress the photo we once had I lay only staring at you once more I awake before I sleep Your promises I keep In me~ you are also in deep My stars change everyday Waiting for you, to pull the trigger Still wishing to be a sun digger You can't touch or loosen the knots Together we will daydream our way to the top I make your nerve system come alive, We run into the wind and listen Quietly in our chamber of thoughts Near and far, we both nod off In this daily race, with no face No space, I caught myself awake, The day I fell asleep for you. by;PD