Amber Rivers of Past Regret

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In a dark time, I had to face a traumatizing situation that I don't know how in the world I let happen, which involved my whole family! The event placed me in self-conviction; I turned my back to life itself and plummeted down the rabbit hole into the abyss and cesspools of drugs and alcohol, wishing, hoping they would take my life. Twenty-two years I sat talking with God from the devastation.

I passed away two years ago, placed on life support for a week and a half, where my oxygen levels fell to 32% for my brain and body to operate. Five days I was left this way, trying to get my daughter to let me go, she was my POA so that they could turn the machine off; otherwise, I'd come out a vegetable. Before they shut it off, I sat up but furthering my disability with comprehension and memory problems. Finally, I said to God; Lord, I can not go one living this way; I didn't want to live this way anymore. But Lord, I need your help this time coming home to join and relive in life once again.

It happened on November 27, 1997, Thanksgiving Day.

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Amber Rivers of past regret: Something I can not just forget The pain is too deep of a feel inside Somewhere along these trails, I ride. It's deep a wound I cannot forget, Amber Rivers with this deep regret I'm not sure how to tolerate this pain As I walk this lonely road in my brain. Deep it was; that was taken from me, I shall sail out unto the sea A drowning of myself, I feel For what I did, I can not repeal. I close to this in me writing words: What I had done was so absurd I should've been more assertive to her To me now, it's as if it were a blur. Sadly it is not the case, I've seen, I need to accept it, move on indeed But my pain is too damn severe Amber Rivers, I had disappeared.

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Constance La France

Date: 12/2/2021 10:05:00 AM

William, such an emotional and wonderfully penned poem, the art is terrific, the journey difficult, your ink beautiful ~ peace and tranquility _Constance

William Darnell Sr.
Date: 12/3/2021 12:05:00 AM

Constance, thank you for such a beautiful comment, and of course, your visit. I try to be a difference and make a difference by sharing my journey with my words. From the difficulties I had gone through, I can share my experience in a world where each knows nothing of anothers journey, making this world a disconnected society. Thanks again, Constance; I appreciate your presence in my journey! Happy Holidays! Best of Wishes, William