Absolution
Within a tear I shed
Lists all the deeds
I dread
Things that I have done
From which I wish I could run
Or perhaps bury in the sun
So, they would burn away
And I wouldn’t have to pay
But let’s face the truth
There is no wisdom
In youth
I don’t mean to sound uncouth
But there are things I regret
And upon reflection
Situations I wish I never met
It’s a rotten feeling
To be reeling
That others have been hurt
From things I have done
Its self-pity and shame
That make me want to run
A self-loathing of adolescence
Of doing things
That made no sense
A mistake of the past tense
They say there is forgiveness
But I don’t want to be forgiven
I want another chance at living
I want to do it all again
And know all the answers beforehand
I don’t want mistakes
I don’t want regrets
I want to cheat and hedge my bets
Is the honesty of my intent
Beautiful or hell bent?
Or just a soul letting itself vent?
I’ve done wrong to a few
And for that parts of me
Will forever feel blue
It’s not something new
Just something you accrue
As the time carries on
It is with a downward gaze
That I wish them the best
A long and peaceful rest
A plea of spiritual behest
The scars I retain from our time
Have taught me the sublime
For this my gratitude
Pales to your loss
I gladly offer my salvation
To replace you on the cross
And show my repent
That my love for you
Is Heaven sent
For I am human
I am weak
I am meek
It is of sin that I reek
It is your forgiveness
I seek………
Please forgive me……….
Copyright © Eric Nolan | Year Posted 2024
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